Don't you wish sometimes that God would just throw down an instruction sheet??? You know, some of us just don't get it even when we really study, we need a cheat sheet. I think I am one of those people. I am having the big birthday soon and I still haven't figured out what I am suppose to be......... I have this amazing friend whom since the day I met her she has told me the things that God tells her. She has this direct line. I know it is true because number one I know God does that with some, that is her spiritual gift. I honestly used to be a little frightened and also I must admit a little jealous. Why does he tell her and not me?? Then a couple of years ago as my life started falling apart and no matter how hard I prayed it kept falling, I realized I did not listen. All along, he was right beside my ear whispering softly, " I have great plans for you." There were nights that I cried buried in my pillow so that my daughter would not hear and I would so desperately want someone to talk to, someone who knew exactly how deep my hurt was, how sad my heart was. He was there all along. I can see it so clearly now. I survived, and I became a listener, I learned the true meaning of faith. It was only when I really put it all in God's hands that I could see clearly why I had to go through the pain. At our wedding, Michael and I had the song played, "God blessed the broken road". We both took rocky paths to get to where we are today, a lot of hurt, loneliness, just going through the motions. The thing we talk about most is how God worked in our lives, how we found each other. There will always be difficult times, sad times, frustrations, there will always be people that come in your life and exit your life, if I have learned anything it is to be thankful for those times and those people just as much as the joys and blessings, because they were part of your path that led you to where you are and they will be the stepping stones that get you to where you need to be. I would not have the most wonderful love story had I not went through some of the deepest pain.
Now, if only he would tell my friend what I am suppose to be...........
Awesome piece!! Amen.
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If you really don't know yet who you are, then I'll give you some advice on listening. Go back and read your writing while listening to your heart and God's. Your love for people and your passion for expressing that love pulses throughout your writing like a heartbeat- strong and steady. When you reveal those deepest thoughts and feelings it's as if I hear your heartbeat becoming louder and sometimes faster. And sometimes it seems that it's not just one heartbeat that i hear, but along side of yours i hear the reassuring echo of the Father's heart- the One who created your beautiful, expressive, and creative heart. I hear the rumble of His laughter at your humor and His " That's My girl!" when you capture a thought or insight right absolutely perfectly. He has given you a rich background of experience that is big enough for you to start becommimg all that you wish to be and MORE. Do you not know that you are an exceptionally gifted writer with a flair for choosing just the right words and balance of emotions? Read through your writing one more time- not looking to see if you can improve it, but listening for the heartbeats. Much love, Terry E.
ReplyDeleteI have so enjoyed reading Pebbles in The Road. This reminded me of so many of the roads I have been down. You are a God send to many. Love you, RP
ReplyDeleteLove, love this one!! I think you are doing exactly what God has planned for you - you are touching people's heart! Love ya, Teresa
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