Oh how I miss you!
Sitting here with your Great Granddaughter lying beside me, I remember the joy you had when Evan and Kelsey were born. How you would come over every day to see them, always insisting I go take a nap and you would take care of the baby! I think of how you would adore this little one, she looks so much like "pal".
I miss the simple things, the daily phone call that I took for granted, the way you would laugh till you had tears in your eyes, the way you would throw random facts of history at us when we had Sunday dinner, then shake your head in disappointment when we didn't know the answer. I miss your stories, some I had heard a thousand times, but would give anything to hear them just once more. I miss your voice, that calm, strong, voice, always reassuring me.
Our family has grown since you have been gone. We have so many new and wonderful people that we have three tables instead of just one, but to me there is always something missing. I often times can look to your seat at the head of the table and still picture you there. Eleven years is a long time, they say time eases the pain of loosing someone, but it still hurts just as deeply today as it did that March afternoon, I just tuck it away better.
I think of you in heaven and the joy you must have there. I see you dancing with Cindy and running throwing a football and shaking your head in awe at all the unanswered questions being answered. I found it ironic that Elizabeth Taylor died on your birthday last year, I imagine you thought she was a birthday gift. I always see you young and healthy and cancer free. I bet you were in shock when you met your heart donor... oh how I would have loved to have seen that!! Makes me laugh thinking about it. What a special young lady that was!!! She gave us almost 11 bonus years with you!!
I think you would be proud of me, I stumble sometimes but I always get back up, even when I didn't want to. I like to believe you had a part in sending me Michael, he is so much like you!! I dreamed about you the other night and in my dream you had on a GT ball cap, I think that was your way of letting me know you approve...
I promise this little angel of a Granddaughter will know all about you. I smiled as I whispered in her ear the other day that the mighty oak tree was once just a tiny nut like her...
Love you Daddy, miss you every day.
Delta Dawn
Kerry - three things I remember about Zack White:
ReplyDelete1: He loved his family more than anything
2: He had the mumps as an adult
3: He wouldn't take a shower for a long time after watching Psycho!
Your dad is always with you Kerry!
Kerry,
ReplyDeleteI just read this and Ihave tears streaming down my face. You are such a gifted writer. I hardly had knew him but by reading this I get a true sense of the man you called Dad. He reminds me of my father who will be gone 9 years on the 27th.
That's the same day my mom is scheduled to be moved from a rehab hosptial to assisted living. She can't wait to see my Dad again. My Dad shows up as a red cardinal at the times I need him most and even when cardinals shouldn't be anywhere in the vicinity. They're both watching and that GT cap is his approval.
Your Dad would be VERY proud of you!! You bounce back after each setback and you have finally found where you should have been years ago. He's smiling down on you, I promise you!